"Once I was beset by anxiety. I couldn't tell right from left or orient myself. I could have cried out with terror at being lost. But I pushed the fear away - by studying the sky, determining where the moon would come out, where the sun would appear in the morning. I saw myself in relationship to the stars. I began weeping, and I knew that I was all right.
"That is the way I make use of geometry today. The miracle is that I am able to do it, by geometry."
-Louise Bourgeois
New York, 1977
(her work)
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May we all find our geometry, our moon, our sun, and each other, and know we're all right in 2012.
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Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Not so fast...
Over on the bg site I frequent, they are already shouting "HNY!" Happy new year, in case you can't figure it out :)
But... It's December 27th. There are 4 days left. Inside my head, I am screaming, "Nooooooo, waaaaiiiitttttt! It's going too fast!"
2011 was a hard year. It was hard, financially. I'm just not very good with money, and the recession hasn't helped.
It was hard, personally, emotionally. I took some risks and they have paid off, my life is richer for them. But there were also some losses and disappointments, which I took very hard. I keep looking at my heart charm and seeing that little heart, ripped open (see Shambhala) and trying to remember that's how it is supposed to be.
It was hard, healthwise - but not really. I'm fine! A little anxiety as frosting on top of the already-overstuffed anxiety layer cake - but I'm fine! Except for the bills... Too low levels of thyroid medication, as it turns out, didn't help much either. But I'm fine now! Almost.
And it was hard, creatively. Or rather... it was very rich creatively, almost too rich. I have way more ideas than I have time, and this year it wasn't just my own natural procrastination that got in my way.
When I did make time for it, it was very fruitful. The Radical Jewelry Makeover was RAD, a tremendous blessing, a very healthy kick in the pants. I need to write my thoughts about it, for it changed my creativity and thinking profoundly, and I want to complete that writing before the year is out... 2011, SLOW DOWN!!!
Overall, my creativity was fruitful and fitful, lots of stops and starts.
2011 was just so full of clutter.
Here's hoping that 2012 is more fruit than fits!
But please, please - can we wait until Saturday before we begin?! I'd like to get through this year in one piece first...
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But... It's December 27th. There are 4 days left. Inside my head, I am screaming, "Nooooooo, waaaaiiiitttttt! It's going too fast!"
2011 was a hard year. It was hard, financially. I'm just not very good with money, and the recession hasn't helped.
It was hard, personally, emotionally. I took some risks and they have paid off, my life is richer for them. But there were also some losses and disappointments, which I took very hard. I keep looking at my heart charm and seeing that little heart, ripped open (see Shambhala) and trying to remember that's how it is supposed to be.
It was hard, healthwise - but not really. I'm fine! A little anxiety as frosting on top of the already-overstuffed anxiety layer cake - but I'm fine! Except for the bills... Too low levels of thyroid medication, as it turns out, didn't help much either. But I'm fine now! Almost.
And it was hard, creatively. Or rather... it was very rich creatively, almost too rich. I have way more ideas than I have time, and this year it wasn't just my own natural procrastination that got in my way.
When I did make time for it, it was very fruitful. The Radical Jewelry Makeover was RAD, a tremendous blessing, a very healthy kick in the pants. I need to write my thoughts about it, for it changed my creativity and thinking profoundly, and I want to complete that writing before the year is out... 2011, SLOW DOWN!!!
Overall, my creativity was fruitful and fitful, lots of stops and starts.
2011 was just so full of clutter.
Here's hoping that 2012 is more fruit than fits!
But please, please - can we wait until Saturday before we begin?! I'd like to get through this year in one piece first...
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